and what do I plan to do about it?
The reasons are twofold. First, I'm not an argumentative person, per se, yet I get angry when some random RM gets up in priesthood meeting, assails the "gay lifestyle," and is only encouraged to do so. He is only be speaking to the truth he knows… yet, why not just testify the rural farmers in northeast Mongolia aren't farming correctly? Some things are hard to relate to because they are hard to relate to for a straight guy living in Provo.
Second, I may feel that I am worthy to participate but the church doesn’t think so. Monogamy is as monogamy does, I say, but the church REALLY doesn’t agree. The church has stated that, celibate, a gay man may continue in full fellowship in the church. The church has also expanded the concept of celibacy to include dating, holding hands, and even talking to other homosexuals. What unbearable loneliness!
So it isn't that I've "violated" the law of chastity, I haven’t. It's that I fully intend to.
How can I not? Is companionship not a basic human need? Are we not designed to find our better half and marry that person? If the Law of Chastity covers any and all expressions of love, how can I ever hope to be a complete person?*
My challenge in life is to fall in love and be allowed to hug him. Is that not the most pathetic thing you have ever heard? A hug is an insurmountable obstacle. What life have I lead to be brought to this. How can I want to be a part of this? How could anyone?
*And why must I rely on question marks so heavily?